Autumn 2015 Goals Update

autumn-leaves This post is the one that I've been struggling to write for a week and a half. It's going to be honest because transparency is important to me. I'm also a little afraid to hit publish.

Unlike my post about depression, the shortcomings I will outline are entirely up to me. I'm sharing my problems because I need you lovely people to help hold me accountable to achieving these goals.

Back in August, before I moved, I outlined a series of goals I wanted to accomplish this fall. The goals seemed simple enough. I was more than confident that I'd have them fulfilled by October.

Here's everything I've accomplished thus far:

  1. Publish Blood and Water
  2. Take another trip to Chicago
  3. Write the first draft of Reflections
  4. Throw or attend a Halloween party
  5. Be featured on a podcast
  6. Break even on book sales with Blood and Water
  7. Write a spooky short story
  8. Audition for a play
  9. Survive Dragon Con
  10. Finish Twitter for Writers blog post series

That's it, you guys. 2/10. In short... no bueno. I am not a happy camper.

If you know me at all, you know I loathe standing still. I know I shouldn't feel this way, but my lack of progress toward these goals has me feeling weak. I'm low in self-esteem.

The goal I'm the most ashamed about not reaching yet is the publication of Blood and Water. In spite of how busy I've been, I can't help feeling like I've let some people down. Of course, I am actively working toward completing it. I've almost finished my second round of edits. And my completion of number six is contingent on my completion of number one, so... I'm just thinking out loud.

I digress.

I've felt bad about myself for a few weeks because I still have a long way to go. Still, I think writing this post has helped a little bit. What I'm trying to say is this: I could use some encouragement. Also, if you feel like you're not accomplishing as much as you could be, you're not alone.

And autumn isn't over! So, yeah. There's that.

Don't count me out just yet.

What words of wisdom do you have for me? What are you feeling down and out about lately?

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